Its been a while documenting other then the fun going on in our lives
I've had jumble mumble thoughts going on in my head for days, thinking that I need to sit down and write down my thoughts because these moments are ones that aren't outspoken, not edited, or snapped on a cell phone. Thoughts running in my head that need to be put down
I don't know if its the Vitamin D my body is soaking up, or knowing that my boys are getting older everyday. In so many way I am loving it, and loving having a conversation with Keenan, because it has been so long in not having that, seeing them grow into young kids and not baby's and toddlers, but I just want to scoop them up and snuggle with them.
I hope it never ends but I know it will. I know this because it happened to me. Every night I would tell me dad, I love you, and give him a kiss goodnight. Until I hit my early youngwomanhood years. Like 12. But as I was snuggling with Keenan in my bed this morning and in the 15 minutes he was there with me, he said I love you mom three times. Then it was time to get out and I told him to leave because I had to change and I didn't want him to see my "umbows" his word for boobs. Which he started laughing and left. gotta love him
I run every so often with a great friend of mine that I am so grateful to have. I have been needing this kind of friend who will just stop by to say hi or to drop off goodies that she made for her family. A friend that I can say, he last minute but you wanna go somewhere? And she drops in like its hot and we are on our way. A friend that will call me up to say hi. I seriously have wanted this for as long as I have been married. We think very much alike and she loves to cook! Which I used to love to do, and have steered away from that, but now I am finding myself loving it again because of her. We share our thoughts on mommyhood, the good, the bad. But what we realized is that we made it seem that we didn't like being moms and that our kids irriated us to no end, and we can't wait for them to grow up. At that moment, I changed my views. I wanted to appreciate them, the time I had with them, and actually enjoy being with them. Things have changed for the good! I see that I enjoy being a mom, I enjoy my kids, and I have found that I have more patience with them.
I have had a great relationship with Juan. The best I believe we have had in years. I put things aside that I thought were important, and to an extent they are, but when it puts a fight into the marriage somethings gotta change. So I did. I made a change to not let the petty things get in my way.
I've change my perspective. My house isn't always going to be clean. Im never going to have all that money. But what I always will have is my family. And they are number 1!
I've had jumble mumble thoughts going on in my head for days, thinking that I need to sit down and write down my thoughts because these moments are ones that aren't outspoken, not edited, or snapped on a cell phone. Thoughts running in my head that need to be put down
I don't know if its the Vitamin D my body is soaking up, or knowing that my boys are getting older everyday. In so many way I am loving it, and loving having a conversation with Keenan, because it has been so long in not having that, seeing them grow into young kids and not baby's and toddlers, but I just want to scoop them up and snuggle with them.
I hope it never ends but I know it will. I know this because it happened to me. Every night I would tell me dad, I love you, and give him a kiss goodnight. Until I hit my early youngwomanhood years. Like 12. But as I was snuggling with Keenan in my bed this morning and in the 15 minutes he was there with me, he said I love you mom three times. Then it was time to get out and I told him to leave because I had to change and I didn't want him to see my "umbows" his word for boobs. Which he started laughing and left. gotta love him
I run every so often with a great friend of mine that I am so grateful to have. I have been needing this kind of friend who will just stop by to say hi or to drop off goodies that she made for her family. A friend that I can say, he last minute but you wanna go somewhere? And she drops in like its hot and we are on our way. A friend that will call me up to say hi. I seriously have wanted this for as long as I have been married. We think very much alike and she loves to cook! Which I used to love to do, and have steered away from that, but now I am finding myself loving it again because of her. We share our thoughts on mommyhood, the good, the bad. But what we realized is that we made it seem that we didn't like being moms and that our kids irriated us to no end, and we can't wait for them to grow up. At that moment, I changed my views. I wanted to appreciate them, the time I had with them, and actually enjoy being with them. Things have changed for the good! I see that I enjoy being a mom, I enjoy my kids, and I have found that I have more patience with them.
I have had a great relationship with Juan. The best I believe we have had in years. I put things aside that I thought were important, and to an extent they are, but when it puts a fight into the marriage somethings gotta change. So I did. I made a change to not let the petty things get in my way.
I've change my perspective. My house isn't always going to be clean. Im never going to have all that money. But what I always will have is my family. And they are number 1!
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