Baby #4

Wow I can't believe that I'm even writing this! 4 kids!!! Another baby is on the way! I can't even begin to write my emotions right now, and what is going on in my head! Lets back up to March. When I went to my sisters house for a girls weekend, she was pregnant, and after talking to her even before I went down, and thoughts and feelings she was having were the same I had been having. We don't necessarily want another child, but stop being selfish, were getting in shape, don't want to lose this body, (that isn't so amazing anyways) how can I do it, how is this going to work, ect. I come home from my sisters house and Juan picks me up from the airport and we have this conversation about my feelings, and he had gone to church with all 3 boys that Sunday, which is a miracle in itself for him to go alone, and he had the same feelings while at church that we needed to be unselfish and think about another baby. Well that's all it took. I took of my birth control patch and waited it out. All along I am still questioning myself and do I really want another one, Im to comfortable with our situation. But in the back of my head, I have 2 kids at school all day, respite hours for Damon, so why not? If we are meant to have a baby, then it will work itself out. Well here we are, June 9, and I just found out were pregnant! It took one month to get pregnant! This is a small miracle in itself because I don't get pregnant easily. So for me to get pregnant after one month and not even trying is amazing! I had to get meds for Damon at Fred Meyers, so I got a pregnancy test, used a self checkout because I feel like I would get looks with 3 kids and buying a pregnancy test. Ran for the bathroom, and it showed up fast! like in 10 seconds fast! I put the kids in the playland so I could gather my thoughts and my phone was dead! I wanted to call Juan! He can't believe it either! Another funny he brought up... we wanted to be done at 30, according to a due date calculator March 7! my bday is the 11th, and Juans the 22nd! We will both be 30! Kinda funny!