Day 8

I took a while to get to the hospital today because I needed to catch up on things at home a bit. I felt like I needed to be at two places at once. My hormones are still wacky and not normal so feeling the baby blues is a normal thing these days. The one thing I was scared about having a baby was not having patience. Because I knew this going in I have tried to keep it in check a little with the boys. I have tried to keep calm but that hasn't always been the case. Today I had Keenan doing chores to earn money and to help me out. I was trying to explain to him how to take off the kirby parts to add the extension to add the part to vacuum the wood floors. That was a test of my patience but I couldn't go down and help him because I was pumping. But he got it and figured it out! It reminded me of when we would do experiments when your partner was blindfolded and you had to tell them exactly what to do without touching them. But he got it and hopefully he can remember the next time!
We have a friends bday party to go to tonight at Big Als and Juan was asking me if I wanted to go. A big part of me doesn't want to but another part of me wants to go to get out other then being at the hospital. And it's also his bday tommorow and I would feel bad not doing anything. I know it's the blues/ depression that is making me not want to do it. So forcing myself to get out hopefully it will be fun!
When I got into the NICU today I went where she normally is and there were 3 nurses with a breathing pack working on a baby. My heart sank thinking it was her but then realized that baby was too small and not Adalyn. I wasn't told she was moved to a new spot. She is doing great and loves to be held! I just  get to snuggle with her while I'm here and I love it!